So I'm Gonna

So I've decided that I'm going to lose more weight even if it kills me. I've been at this eating disordered business for a while and I feel like it's time to step out of the minors and go pro.  You see its never really been about being thin for me it's been about dealing with this giant fuckedupmess know as life.  Bulimia was my way of calcifying my problems without actually dealing with them.  But now that I'm actually dealing, I just restrict, because I honest to God cannot take anything else in right now.  I hurt, things are not okay and I have to take control over my body.

It's game time.

Austen